She was beside my bed--at first. It's like every second has a different kind of scene frame & to my surprise there she was, growling like a wild dog, pumping at my chest, trying to take the last oxygen I could inhale. She appeared to be a long haired midget, with dark image & red eyes... a DEATH ANGEL [for REAL].DREAM-- it was just a dream & as I woke up gasping for breath, I squinted my eyes in the verge of darkness. Deep within me I knew it was real... I almost quivered inside by the thought of it.
It's 2:00 in the morning to be exact ( 1 hr to go & it would be the evil time, in contrast to 3 pm, when Jesus died). I searched for that creature, but she was no longer to be found. The tension wouldn't subside though, my eyes were wet from nightmare down to reality. So I turned the lights on, examined my body in front of the mirror, no sign of her but she did leave burden to my spirit.
Being drowned w/ worries & boggled by patches of my bedtime memories ( when I was awakened bec. my bed was literally shaking, when my left leg was hit but nobody's around, when the door had slightly opened for no apparent reason, heard heavy footsteps & many creepy experiences), I looked for HIM. And when I opened the bible, I was astounded by the scripture...it said "You are all children of GOD through faith in Christ Jesus" (Gal. 3:26 NLT). Well it was real CLOSE to what I was asking & shouting in my dream, while crying & battling with the death angel.
BIG REALIZATION snapped me then--GOD saved me bec. HE simply loves me, despite the fact that I intentionally didn't pray that night bec. I was having a cold heart towards Him & I even said 'my hopes have gone astray'. I WAS SO ASHAMED.
Note: Whoever gets to read this blog, please take time to read THE DIVINE REVELATION of HELL by Mary K. Baxter, it's a MUST READ, Hell is real.
