QUESTiON MARK

Have you ever felt like YOU'RE LOST [suddenly]???


I don't know...I've never been so UNSURE in my entire life, I'm starting to feel like I'm a TOTAL FREAK.

I was DECiDED...really decided, of what I want to happen in my life this coming 2012, I want to be perfect, planned, no MONSTERS included from the past...

Well I thought everything's going fine, I'm HEALED, already forgave those who have INTENTIONALLY HURT ME. Until somebody messed up with me, (it's Sir Jhigz) he accidentally heard the SUPER DISCREET issue na I fell in love with this guy, and so this boss started teasing me & 'di pa nakuntento tinawagan pa si guy saying "punta ka dito etc. WHAT THE F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As in what the freakin' freezin funny fudge!!Anak naman ng tokwa, NANAHIMIK na ko eh.
This boss was so persistent na the guy & I should TALK..(what for?? I mean he has hurt me in so many ways, he didn't even treat as a friend for what he has done)..Ganun talaga siguro, may mga taong pinanganak na sadyang MAKASARILI.
Whoooooooooohhhh!! pwede MAGLAHO???!!

Yeah, it's CHRISTmas and it's all about love, giving & forgiveness..wait, sabi ko nga NAPATAWAD ko na 'di ba?? Though it's WITHIN..no need to have a conversation, ikaw ba gugustuhin mo pa bang MAKASALAMUHA ulit yung taong nanakit sayo ng sobra?syempre HINDI, kaya nga may PAGBABAGO eh, MAY PANAHON NG PAGSASAMA at may ORAS NG PAGHIHIWALAY.


PERO bakit ganun? Ikaw na gustong gusto ng magmove-on, ikaw na walang inasam kundi INNER PEACE...e ikaw pa yung pilit na sinasakal ng mga taong AYAW LUMIMOT. Too many voices, kesyo I should do this, do that..Lord, ano po bang klaseng test to? CLUE naman 'dyan oh ='(


At the end of the day, I'M STILL CRYING IN DEEP PAIN. Naiisip ko tuloy, baka ako din talaga may kasalanan, kasalanan na naniwala sa mga SIGNS at nagpabihag sa mga patibong ni Satan (about signs nga), kasalanan na sumama ako sa Pagudpud, kasalanan na NAKISALAMUHA pa 'ko, kasalanan na pilit siyang isama sa mundo ko (Pampanga), kasalanan na umasa, magpakatanga, mag-effort, kasalanang maniwala sa IDEAL LOVE, at kasalanan na MANAHIMIK lang...Ewan, sabi nila sabihin ko daw dapat sa taong nanakit sakin lahat ng masasakit na salita pero hindi ko kaya teh...kung masasaktan yun, syempre mas masasaktan ako at yun ang TOTOO. Ano ng gagawin ko ='( ='( ='( LUBAYAN 'NYO NA KO PLS.