QUESTiON MARK

Have you ever felt like YOU'RE LOST [suddenly]???


I don't know...I've never been so UNSURE in my entire life, I'm starting to feel like I'm a TOTAL FREAK.

I was DECiDED...really decided, of what I want to happen in my life this coming 2012, I want to be perfect, planned, no MONSTERS included from the past...

Well I thought everything's going fine, I'm HEALED, already forgave those who have INTENTIONALLY HURT ME. Until somebody messed up with me, (it's Sir Jhigz) he accidentally heard the SUPER DISCREET issue na I fell in love with this guy, and so this boss started teasing me & 'di pa nakuntento tinawagan pa si guy saying "punta ka dito etc. WHAT THE F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As in what the freakin' freezin funny fudge!!Anak naman ng tokwa, NANAHIMIK na ko eh.
This boss was so persistent na the guy & I should TALK..(what for?? I mean he has hurt me in so many ways, he didn't even treat as a friend for what he has done)..Ganun talaga siguro, may mga taong pinanganak na sadyang MAKASARILI.
Whoooooooooohhhh!! pwede MAGLAHO???!!

Yeah, it's CHRISTmas and it's all about love, giving & forgiveness..wait, sabi ko nga NAPATAWAD ko na 'di ba?? Though it's WITHIN..no need to have a conversation, ikaw ba gugustuhin mo pa bang MAKASALAMUHA ulit yung taong nanakit sayo ng sobra?syempre HINDI, kaya nga may PAGBABAGO eh, MAY PANAHON NG PAGSASAMA at may ORAS NG PAGHIHIWALAY.


PERO bakit ganun? Ikaw na gustong gusto ng magmove-on, ikaw na walang inasam kundi INNER PEACE...e ikaw pa yung pilit na sinasakal ng mga taong AYAW LUMIMOT. Too many voices, kesyo I should do this, do that..Lord, ano po bang klaseng test to? CLUE naman 'dyan oh ='(


At the end of the day, I'M STILL CRYING IN DEEP PAIN. Naiisip ko tuloy, baka ako din talaga may kasalanan, kasalanan na naniwala sa mga SIGNS at nagpabihag sa mga patibong ni Satan (about signs nga), kasalanan na sumama ako sa Pagudpud, kasalanan na NAKISALAMUHA pa 'ko, kasalanan na pilit siyang isama sa mundo ko (Pampanga), kasalanan na umasa, magpakatanga, mag-effort, kasalanang maniwala sa IDEAL LOVE, at kasalanan na MANAHIMIK lang...Ewan, sabi nila sabihin ko daw dapat sa taong nanakit sakin lahat ng masasakit na salita pero hindi ko kaya teh...kung masasaktan yun, syempre mas masasaktan ako at yun ang TOTOO. Ano ng gagawin ko ='( ='( ='( LUBAYAN 'NYO NA KO PLS.

My TOP 10 CHRiSTmas wish- MY GUY

1. LOVES GOD first (so we could both share the love of GOD).
2. 5’ 9’’ (yeah, I noticed that HEIGHT really matters to me, LOL).
3. Ahmm… quite tan in color. 
4. SLIM (I said slim, neither PAYATOT nor CHUBBY will be allowed!)
5. Syempre with a CUTE SMILE, sige idagdag na natin yung passe na with tantalizing eyes (whoah!HAHA)
6. MATALINO pero willing magmukhang TANGA minsan, when the situation calls for it, especially with LOVE.
7. MA-EFFORT!!!—‘Yung gagawa ng paraan para makita at makausap ako, bow)
8. MAALAGA & RESPONSIBLE (‘yoko ng DUWAG teh.)—‘Yung tipong ipagtatanggol ako at HINDING-HINDI gagawa ng isang bagay na alam niyang ikasasakit ng loob ko. (Hindi gaya ng iba ‘dyan, self-centered, ililigtas agad ang SARILI habang yung isa nags-suffer from public  disgrace kasi nagmatapang mag-effort para lang i-prove yung love nya)—ok going back =) ‘Yung bang para sa kanya, I’M ENOUGH, NO OTHER OPTIONS & NO BUT’S. At ngapala, yung mas MATURE naman mag-isip kesa saken (I’m not saying na dapat yung MATANDA na, kasi proven naman…maturity DOESN’T come with age, gusto mo magsabi ako ng mga names??LOL)—Eto pa, sana yung READY sa SERiOUS & LONG TERM RELATIONSHIP!
9. Seryoso ng konti in public pero FUN TO BE WITH talaga sa personal.
10. and higit sa lahat, yung may GOOD HEART =)

Lord, I know mahirap maghanap ng lalaking gan’to dahil puro TANGA at BULAG ang mga nakikita ko. But I’ll patiently WAIT for this one. I know You’re preparing him na. Sabi nga THE BEST LOVE STORY COMES TO THOSE WHO PATIENTLY WAIT.

I’LL SAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR THIS MAN…UNTIL THE RIGHT TIME COMES… I mean in YOUR RIGHT TIME =’)